Abuse.
I feel like my life is falling apart. I took some time away from friends to try and sort everything out, but it hasn’t helped at all. I just feel so distant from everyone and depressed, which is my own fault for asking for time away in the first place. Now I am being anonymously bullied over facebook from a fake account, for no reason what so ever. I feel so isolated because I know it is someone I consider a ‘friend’ as they know things off my fb profile, where I only accept people i know IRL.
Three of my close friends died in the past month, and 7 people I knew died last year. I thought time alone would help me to clear my head and process the grief, but it has just made things worse. I should have been grateful for my amazing friends, but now I have nothing. My depression is seeping back into my life, along with my E.D.
I was also excited to be spending some time in London this year, but only yesterday I found multiple blogs giving my travel company horrible reviews. I had already made a $1400 down payment. But have now found it is a total scam. I am so distraught and devastated that I have been so naive. I’m so disappointed in myself. And now I don’t even have any friends in my life to talk to any of this about.
I don’t know what to do. I can’t believe how I can go from being so happy in life, to feeling so depressed and isolated. I don’t understand why I let myself do this. Or why I decide to bring this all upon myself.
I was finally happy. Why did I have to ruin it. :(
